Hi beautiful Friends!
It’s been far too long. There has been so much life change since I last posted. I just wanted to take some time and share.
This winter, I wrote a blog post about meal prepping and cooking for people. That worked well for a while. I started doing that because I had just gone through a divorce and needed any extra money I could get, while working full time and being a full time mom. I quickly burned myself out. It is something I still really enjoy and wish to continue even large scale some time in the future. Lofty dreams, I know.
In the last year / year and a half, I’ve experienced things I never thought I would. Both good and bad. I changed jobs in a hurry to get out of an emotionally abusive and volatile situation that kept getting worse. I lost a lot of people I loved overnight because of my divorce. At that point, everything besides my kids and my job took a back burner. Unfortunately this also meant coaching and meal prepping too. I thought if I continued something I was passionate about, it would be a good distraction, but it just drained me more. The past couple of months have been good and healing, but there has been so many added stresses in my life trying to move on. Fixing up my house to sell practically alone, trying to find somewhere to move, trying to find a balance with my ex and our kids, financial strain, and so many more.
Okay, so lets talk ANXIETY. I’ve NEVER experienced it like I have recently. I’ve had multiple panic attacks. I’ve laid in bed crying many mornings (especially when my kids are with their dad), my food choices have not been the greatest. I’ve consumed more alcohol than I should have. My gut has been a MESS. My acne has come back despite my efforts to keep it at bay. Even when I had been eating clean and not drinking, I was still having stress caused symptoms unlike anything I’ve been through. But, here I am-working my ass off, reflecting, growing, having hard conversations, trying to be financially savy and be the best mom/person/friend I can be.
All of this to say, I am in a very new place. I could not have got a job at a better place, my kids’ school, and my coworkers are now like family. I have wonderful friends surrounding me. I have a amazing friend-turned-boyfriend who has been my biggest encourager, helper, sounding board, comedian, goof ball, sous chef, project partner, dreamer, and friend. Even under the mass amounts of stress, I am so happy.
My reason for posting this today is to share that I am just as human as you are. I am/have gone through the same things you have. Divorce is terrible. Anxiety is awful. Being a single parent is HARD. Especially living 2.5 hours away from your family. I am not prefect with my food/drink choices. I am still learning and growing like you are. I am still a work in progress. I have so many goals and dreams that I want to achieve and I’ve let a bad relationship and divorce stand in the way of getting those dreams. Not anymore. I’m all in. I’m here to help you. Time to go full force. Dive in with 2 feet. How can I help you? What would you like see more of here? What can I offer you?
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I would also LOVE any feedback.